I am just so tired of trying to figure it all out. How it should be, how it could be, how I could be, how we could be, how all of this coulda, shoulda woulda.

I just want to be how I am
I’m sorry if that’s hurtful
I’m sorry if that’s offensive
I’m sorry if that’s not comfortable

I just want to be how I am.
At some point I have to care about being honest and authentic with myself more than censoring to meet the needs of others.